For my thirtieth birthday, my husband took me to see the Celtic Woman perform at a live concert. This event re-awakened a desire that I have had since childhood – to learn to play the violin.
The next year, I purchased a used violin off of Craigslist and a beginner’s violin book. I had never even handled a violin before, but I really wanted to learn how to play.
I knew that it would be rough going – I mean, who picks up the violin as an adult? People told me that I was too old to learn. I didn’t have money for lessons. I squeaked and squawked. I sounded awful!
Do you ever struggle with self-doubt?
Self-doubt can be crippling. Trust me. I speak from experience on this one.
I have been struggling with so much self-doubt lately.
I am not being the wife and mom that I desire to be, and I feel that I am failing my husband and children.
My homeschooling attempts feel completely inadequate.
Grocery shopping and meal preparations have been far from stellar lately. (Last evening after waiting 45 minutes for my rice maker to make the rice, my 8 year old son checked it and informed me that I had never pushed “start”. For Pete’s sake, how hard is it to make rice in a rice maker? I did get dinner on the table – by 7:20 p.m.)
And this blog? I want to write from my heart. I want to encourage and inspire you to keep on teaching your kids about the Bible. But, the last few days I have been so close to closing it down – because I seriously don’t have what it takes to run this blog.
Do you ever struggle with the crippling effects of self-doubt? Do you ever feel like “throwing in the towel” because you just don’t have what it takes to keep on going?
Do you know, I mean REALLY KNOW that God loves you?
Or, is there just a sliver of a doubt in your mind and heart?
When it comes to God’s love, there are times when I doubt, big time.
It is hard for me to believe that God really and truly sees me and loves me.
Because, I know who I am. I know the thoughts in my heart. I know my sins and my failures. I know my own selfishness and pride and anger. And I wonder, “How can God truly love me?”
What does your home mean to you?
Perhaps its your place of refuge and security. Maybe its your greatest financial investment. You probably even spend countless hours making your home as beautiful, clean, and inviting as you possibly can.
You would never grab a sledge hammer and start knocking holes in the walls of your home just for the fun of it.
You would not intentionally tear down your home with your own hands.
And yet, Proverbs 14:1 says, “The wise woman builds her house, but the foolish tears it down with her own hands.”
I don’t think that the foolish woman intentionally sets out to tear her home down with her own hands. She can’t be THAT FOOLISH, right? And yet, whether she means to or not, home destroying is exactly what she does.
I am an avid reader.
I love to escape into other worlds, to experience things that I would never otherwise get to experience and to learn things I would never otherwise get to learn – all from the comfort of my own sofa.
Which is why I recently found myself browsing the Christian fiction section of my local library.
It feels so safe to choose a book off the Christian fiction shelf at the library. These are books that won’t have bad language, overt sex scenes, or promotion of bad morals, right?
So, I grabbed a book off the shelf. A book that is a New York Times Bestseller. A book that is advertised as being about a small town, and not overly romantic.
And I found myself captivated by a romance story that seemed so “innocent” and “safe”, yet ugly dangers were lurking right under the shiny cover.
Christmas and holidays and birthday parties and family celebrations and extended family vacations….
Do these words fill you with joyful expectations and warm fuzzies as you think about your extended family relationships?
Or, would you rather spend time with your dentist undergoing a root canal?
We choose our friends. We don’t choose our family members. But, for better or for worse, our family members seem to stick with us through life.
What can we do when family relationships go sour?
What will be in your heart when you wake up on Wednesday morning?
Lord willing, on Wednesday morning the election cycle will be behind us. We will have a new President.
Many Americans will wake up, rejoicing that their preferred candidate has won. But, many others will wake up to disappointment on Wednesday morning.
After such a caustic election cycle, many voters are extremely frustrated with one or both of the candidates.
So, how will you wake up on Wednesday morning? How can you and I, as Christians, respond to the election results, whether our preferred candidate wins or not?
Moments of rejection stay with us, don’t they?
I will never forget the time that I made cookies and took them over to my new neighbor.
It happened on a Saturday, not long after they had moved in. I noticed that my new neighbors were having a garage sale – and I thought it would be the perfect time to go over and introduce myself and welcome them to the neighborhood.
So, I quickly baked some cookies, arranged them on a disposable plate, and walked over to their home.